Distant Love-The Aftermath

I am here
And I love you
And in my mind
You’re right beside me
Your smile
Your touch
It’s all there

If I were to wake
And feel the empty air
Would my heart
Also disappear

Would the disappointment
Of reality’s stillness
Make me want to run
Or would the remembrance
Of the unconscious connection
Satisfy me in reflection

Youthful Reminisces

You were my light
My life
I was entranced by your presence
The connection I felt was inexplicable

You were nothing more than a dream
A creation of two souls
A journey into who I would become
A haven from present reality

You’re always with me
I’ve never forgotten
The inspiration
The passion
The drive to find the real you

But time has passed
And now I’m no closer to that oblivion
Than I was then

I can revisit who I was then
And who I wanted to become
I can turn around and search for the road
That will take me to that place
Where I live the vision

The desire hasn’t changed
It’s still yearning to unfold
Question is
Will I go backwards
Or forwards

Distant Love

I want to start the day in your arms
Waking up to your smile
The sound of your breathing
The light you get in your eyes when you see my face
There’s nothing like the feel of your hands on my skin
It’s the only time I feel complete
The only time I feel like me
The only time I can let go

If I could rewind time
I would’ve chosen to stay
Back then I was deaf to the pain in your voice
And it felt like it didn’t matter if I left
Now we’ve wasted more than a few years
On paths that have somehow crossed again
Only this time I can’t seem to walk over to yours

My heart is frozen, locked away
And I don’t want to turn the key
Back then you were all I could see
All I wanted to live for
And you took that love and discarded it
Like yesterday’s news

Ripped down the middle
Torn apart
What was I to think
You couldn’t give and I couldn’t stay
In a world of wishes and dreams

Now you say you’ve changed
You were in an endless fog
That you’re almost through
And I want to believe that it’s true
I want to give like I gave before
But the passion’s not there

Is it us, is it me
Am I dead to us or to life
Am I unable to find my way back
To the world of wishes and dreams

Hearing your voice at the end of the line
Comforts me through night and day
We reach through the emptiness
To hold each other, to touch a piece of our life
But then one of us has to go, one of us closes our eyes
The line is dead until we choose to pick it up again

And it's back to nothing
Back to the mundane routine
Back to being alone
Cut off from our world of wishes and dreams

I don’t want to be left here waiting
I’m ready to move forward
The question is are you
Or is it the same as before
Me, ready to go,
You, not willing to move
Please don’t tell me I’ve wasted my effort
To get back to what was you and me

Soulmate Whispers

I see you standing there
Bags in hand
On the way to who knows where
And I don’t know what to say

If I said I want you to stay
Would you hear the words
Or would you turn away

Not knowing that what I need from you
is more than goodbye

More than what you wanted
I was caught between
What you had
And what I thought was
You and me
Building upon what could be

What I find here is peace
What I found is you
Could I see the end of the journey
I wouldn’t have what is true

I do nothing but create
In my head, in my mind
What is, what can be, what was
They’re all swirled together
See what you can find

I feel like flying
Away from what I see
Better to live what you dream
Than to simply breathe

I’m here, so are you
What we are is crossing paths in time
A piece of creation
Becoming a purpose intertwined